Saturday, August 14, 2010

SINKING SHIP



It may be a little hard to admit
But we have more control over our emotions than we think
Most times we find ourselves doing most things alone
Sleeping alone, eating alone, picking ourselves up alone, stay safe and sound alone 

We forget that we actually didn’t do these things alone
It wouldn’t have been possible alone
Someone helped us and his name is GOD

Ever wondered how our parents make a living and make a home alone?
Ever wondered why we fall so easily and rise difficultly?
There’s nothing wrong with dreaming
Even when our hopes are sinking
With a little faith in God, I promise you there will come a day when your dreams will come true 

You might not get the dreams you aspire, you might get better ones
If you don’t give up on yourself
You won’t be like others who gave up on you
You won’t let yourself down


No one spells you life neither does anyone live your life
You feel the degree of hurt and the extension of your smile
You know your wishes, your contemplations
Ever been on the peak of a mountain and few seconds later, you fall right into a valley

Dark valley, absolutely no sunshine
Only God can give us the type of sight we need to survive through our struggles
And help us not wish to be a part of other people’s hustles
He’ll help us build strategies
To be our own person


It’s a promise that if you kneel and pray
U’ll get a better day
God will help you find your way
If you ask him to come into your life and stay
Face reality when you’re falling

No one hears you calling
But God sees it, he feels it, he knows it
And he helps us out, one way or the other
Through people, through things, through yourself


As everyday passes, w live less
We need to make the best of every second we breathe
Don’t spend your life going back to history and remembering things that shouldn’t be memories

God should be in our thoughts, in our words, in our actions
Without him, it gets lonely
And with him, our burdens are lightened
because he will always hold me up like the sky holds the moon

Say this to yourself:
Everyone needs a soul
everyone needs someone or something to believe in
you are not someone, neither are you a thing
you are God, beyond human, beyond things
God, I don’t wanna be a sinking ship

I wanna be a sailing ship
Build on me a stronger ship
Help me pull this weight that staggers my ship
And give me the strength and ability to pull through this overflowing flood
even when there's no light after dawn and even when the waves never stop flooding my shores
I know you can calm these seas because you are the creator of these waves
And you know that I know that I can’t find any other way to make it without you


AMEN

If I take the wings of the morning, And dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea.
Even there Your hand shall lead me. And Your right hand shall hold me.
- Psalms 139:9-10

Nk 

ILLUSIONS



Sometimes I find myself thinking
Will I wake up thanking God that I’ve been dreaming
Other times I find myself believing
That time is on my side, maybe I should just keep living
Life the way it comes
Just sit and watch my future what it becomes
But these days it’s becoming impossible to ignore
I’ve been through this road before
Where pain is felt but crying is not an option
Words have no saying in my agony, it’s all about action
Why wait till thy kingdom come?
Where else will my savior come from?
Why wait for “eventually”?
Maybe it’s my destiny potentially 


Late at night, I watch the skies
This time I’m not crying, no more cries
But the cold breeze brush through my thighs
And I wonder what happens to my soul when my body dies
Who will have me in their memories
Who will remember me as time flies?
Maybe I deserve a remembrance
Maybe I deserve to be history
Did I love him the right way or was I just fill with mystery?
Maybe I’d feel better if I asked myself for forgiveness
Maybe life would make more sense if I live it the way others confess
It should be done
Maybe I deserve the opinions and the judgments
Maybe I deserve these torments



Was I ever ready for anything?
Or did I care about everything?
Did I break or did I fix nothing?
Is my heart living or is it a thing?
Do I really wanna wear a wedding ring?
Maybe I deserve it
Do I wanna wake up every morning, so happy and sing?
Maybe I deserve it
Do I regret my last animalistic fling?
Maybe thatz the way it should be 


Every mistake, every action, every regret
Every emotion, every sweat, every life’s debt
Every nightmare I’ve fought
And every dream I’ve thought

Maybe I deserve it
Time has wasted and it’s still wasting
The lows and the highs, I will be tasting 
The dark and the light, will be pasting
If u ask me, I’m not ready for what my mind’z delusions
It’s my life reflected in everything I see; it often comes as illusions