Wednesday, July 28, 2010

A LETTER TO GOD


Dear God


When the going gets tough


It’s not about who cares and who stays


When the road gets rough


It’s not about who gotta change their ways


Darkness will always give way to light


Dim things will sometime turn bright


When you think about what people say, it will never be all right


Even when they tell you “it will be all right”


Staying out of sight


Does not mean isolation


But letting you fall from a height


Could mean frustration


Sometimes we gotta lean our concentration


More on God’s salvation


With dedication and motivation


You will lead us to our destination





I've always wondered why I cry


And there’s no one there to dry my eye


Ever wondered why I can never touch the sky


Why I never got a chance to fly?


Ever wondered why some of us live and inside we die?


It could be because we are yet to discover you, our one true friend


When we’re broken, our pieces you mend


When we’ve lost our battles, on u we can depend


Because u’ll defend us for as long as it takes for us to ascend


Back into the person we’ve always wanted to be


Who cares how far they go or to what extend


They say the things they say and claim that they never intend


To condescend


To a level of abstract pretend


that is why you are Different


You're man'z own guard & with you, life is well spent


We ignore the truth


We suffer our youth


living in a world of "carry your cross


And I’ll carry mine"


It don’t matter our loss


We would be just fine


If we let ourselves get toss


By our problems, we won’t shine


A star never says no to its glow


Just like a river never say no to its flow


We live, we learn to love life


We get cut by a knife


We patch up the bruise


We got to understand that in life; we win and we lose


And we have the right to choose, use and accept views


Our sadness and happiness have no excuse


Because we only find true refuge in you, God


God is our only true friend






Will you watch over us when our soul and happiness dies?


will you give up on us when we tell constant lies?


I hope you hear our forgiveness cries


when we finally get the boldness to accept the serpent that we've become


we've lost our way and some of us don't even remember where we're from


but somehow, anyhow


someday, one day


we just might find ourselves following a path that leads right back to you


I hope it won't be too late


on our false fate


I hope you'll be patient and open heaven's gate


even when we know we don't deserve the wait


I hope we'll be able to walk straight


or if we'll ever fall, lets fall in the arms of the one who creates


i hope you receive my letter


and get a chance to read it, until then will I feel better








NK

Saturday, July 3, 2010

IN MY PAST




It’s hard to laugh
When u got pain on ur mind
It’s hard to shine
When u sit next to darkness
I think of you every step of the way
And my heart breaks every single day
You are no good for me
And I know this 

It’s simply hard to forget you
I wish u were a better person
But the truth remains the same
U were who you chose to be
Who u wanted to be
I don’t hate you
I don’t love you either 

I just need to fix myself up
Flush out the memories of you
Put you all in my past
Right now, you don’t even seem to matter
I need to get myself back together
Cos u making me less than nothing
A dead human
Still breathing, still eating, still walking

But not the way I used to
I breathe pain
I eat memories
And I walk alone
I’m less to nothing but myself right now



It would be easier if u told me I made you sad
If u held me and told me u won’t be missing me
Tell me you never fell in love with me
And I’ll be moving on
If u tell me you were never mine
Tell me you never had intentions to stay 

Tell me I was the fool all along and our love was simply a game
With one chance, I will say to you again and again
That I don’t wanna miss you
But I cannot pretend or fake my happiness
I’m crushed
I’m a shadow of myself 



I was the last to know how hurt I was
I lived in denial
Died inside
Wishing, simply wishing
Of what it coulda been
But with u nothing woulda been
Good
Every word you said pierced my heart
And everything u did burnt my soul

I’d leave u behind
Because u didn’t give a damn about me
I’ll save my tears for someone else to remind u
That karma is real
It’s harder to sleep
With nightmares of the things u did
Its crazy how romance could break one’s apart
Its fucked up how love could hurt one’s heart
Its matters of the heart 

I’d rethink everything we shared
And I feel sorry for myself
It was crystal clear that we would crash
And stumble upon my being
But I placed myself at risk
Hoping u won’t do to me the things I feared the most
But u did
But I’ll be moving on

Left in my doubts
Left with emptiness
Left with my broken self to deal with 

NK JUNIOR

Sacrifice (I LIVE FOR YOU)





When I lack the strength to move
I still think of ways to pick you up and help you walk
I’ll be left broken
Just to fix your pieces together
I’ll be on the road to hell
Just to make sure u get to heaven

Defend you
Love you
Some say love is a broken dream

Others say there’s more to it than it seems
I’m willing to stay awake just to watch u fall asleep
Sleep sound all through the night
I’ll be alright through the dark and cold lonely nights
As long as you are warm and safe

I’ll give u my happiness, my smile, my charm, my all
Just to make sure you’re alright
Cos I feel your sadness deep inside my soul
And it’s a buried dark hole
Yet to be covered with light





I live to watch u strong
I live to watch u make right when you’re wrong
I live to make u smile more than frown
I live to lift your soul up when you’re down
I fear to fail to give u everything u need
I fear to disregard my emotions
When u’re cold I want to hold you

And stop your body from shivering
When life weighs you down
I wanna stop your eyes from crying
Prevent your heart from breaking
And stop your soul from giving up
Cos when u’re torn, I’m tattered
All my dreams shattered and blown away with your misery





I’ll give u my last breath if I have to
Just to give u life again
I’ll show u dat u are not alone
Cos I’m always gonna be right there
By your side, in your mind, in your heat
I won’t let the tears in your eyes run down your cheeks
Cos I’ll replace it with a smile across your lips
I’ll place you before myself

And above everyone else
Watch me die to let you live
I woun’t give up on you
Your burden is my cross too
My greatest fear is to fail you, fail myself, fail our love
Cos I know u’re scared to be left alone, to stand alone
Watch me die just to let u live
Cos I live for you