I GET HURT

Tears fall down my cheeks

And I stare into the years of my life

Nothing’s change

Same repeated experiences moving all around in circles

And people tryna walk all over me

Stomp on my heart and dictate my emotion

Who do I trust? Nobody

It’s like handing a gun to a little baby

Hoping it won’t shoot

But what if it does

It’s a wasted life and a risk u took

I don’t play my life like that

Because it aint a game or a piece of puzzle thatz needs to be added up

I’d rather stay isolated

At least nothing would get me agitated

This time is not the time I give a damn

If things don’t change, I will

Because there’s so much about life I’ve seen

So much more I would see

And I hate almost everything thatz around me

And almost everyone that is around me

I won’t even try to save anything

Save relationships, save friendships

Because in the end, everyone wants to let u down

I won’t try asking a dog not to bark

Cos thatz the only thing it knows how to do

I won’t try asking myself to trust

Because I will give up on myself

I won’t ask myself to love

Because I would only hate myself

Every other second I stay awake and try to breathe

But I ask myself whatz the use?

I won’t ask questions

Cos silence would be the answers

The kinds of things that my heart is filled with

Should be for the dead, for the devil

When was the last time I seen light?

Even when I open my eyes during the day, it’s darkness I view

I don’t need proof to acknowledge that I’m torn apart

Neither do I need anyone to sympathize with my pain

Just like life is a one time chance thing

So is everyone else that walks into my life

Second chances has always been a repeat act of negativity

I’m not blindfolded yet sometimes I’m blind

There’s only so much a mind, a heart and a soul can take

Especially when it turns cold and confined

I don’t wanna fall asleep

Cos when I wake up it won’t make a difference

The truth stares at me right in the face

And I still don’t know how I missed it

I get hurt

A lot more than I can take

I get hurt

In the worse of ways

I get hurt

By my emotions

I get hurt

By letting those people in my life

I get hurt

In the coldest of ways